Early in my relationship with my husband, we had a time where I was upset over something. I don’t think it related to our relationship, but was due to a challenge in life. I was bawling my eyes out. It was the kind of crying I’d always preferred to do on my own – you know, the kind where tears aren’t the only thing running down your face, if you know what I mean. I wanted my man to think I always had it together, that I always looked lovely, that my smile was constant.
The way he reacted changed my life. He sat with me, holding me while I cried my ugly cry, listening to me and letting me know what I was feeling was understandable. Then, when I thought I was at my worst, he looked deep into my eyes and said, “You are so beautiful!” At first I thought he was joking. I mean, what kind of beauty could he possible see in me in that moment? When I realized he was completely genuine and truly loved me, a shift happened in my soul. Up to this point in my life, I had never experienced a love that would sit with me in my darkest moments and call me beautiful.
I had another similarly powerful moment with God when I was first saved. When I first gave my life to Christ, I was a starving, struggling actress in Hollywood. I had grown accustomed to people treating me kindly, only when they wanted something from me. I was praying and really crying out to God to help improve the life I was living. All of a sudden, I heard another voice inside my head saying, “I love you.” Somehow, I knew it was God, even though I didn’t know it was possible to hear His voice that way. I started to give God reasons why he shouldn’t love me, listing all of the awful things I had done and my failures. “I love you” was the answer that came again. Back and forth, I’d give excuses and He’d reply, “I love you.” He continued to repeat, “I love you,” until I had no more excuses, until I actually let His message of unconditional, complete love sink into my entire being.
And then I wept. I wept and wept the kind of tears that restore all the past pain, the kind of tears that wash away years of abuse, the kind of tears that come from the depth of my soul. “I love you” broke the dam to the wall I had built to keep all my pain in and all God’s love out. The truth of the depth of God’s love completely overpowered me. For the first time in a really long time, I had hope that my life could be good. I had hope that there was a reason for my life. He opened my eyes to the beauty around me.
Beloved, God LOVES you! You cannot measure the depth, power, or constancy of His love for you! I am praying that if you do not know this kind of love from God, that you would begin to experience it today! I want you to know there is a love that overlooks all your mistakes and failures, that loves you in your darkness and calls you beautiful. He has cherished you before you were even born and died for you so that He could be with you forever. When he looks on you, there is unconditional love in His eyes and open arms waiting to envelop you. He says, “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)
Come to Him. Rest in his love and be renewed.